I have couple of posts about my college. I have written about the glorious college life. But, yeah, sadly, i now realize I was just trying to fool around. I was trying to make my college life also something exciting or something. Trust me.. It wasn't. Not even close to. I didn't have half the crazy fun i had in my school. I was bloody shy about getting noticed by some hypocrites. I was scared if I'd get turned into a laughingstock with something idiotic.I still remember, I had such a disgusting sense of dressing! I even thought the "ashram" look might be cool. YUCK!!! I was bad! OK....I have fooled around a lot. I've done my best to portray myself like an idiot. Been pretty successful at that. what was in my mind? What was i thinking back then?I don't really remember at all.I don't remember what all happened.Its a daze right now.
BUTTTT, talking about my school.It ROCKED! I was someone totally different. I had the style statement WITH my uniform.We were one hell'o'a gang!We got ourselves named for the noise and pranks."HOOLIGANS".And am I proud of it? Yeah, i suppose YES!I did things I enjoyed. I played around like mad! I was never worried if i'll flunk! cuz, i knew i wudnt!! I was never ever scared to death for a test!!!It was a free atmosphere.I along with some friends were in-charge of getting other students evaluated for the final P.Ed practicals!!! And, considering that lever of dedication and interest in sports in school, what-the-heck happened to me in college???I didnt like the crowd that gathered! I didnt like the fact that i had to get up at the wee hours of the mornings to get to the gym and play.Before the BOYS turned up.There was so much line of difference.Like the 2 species are not supposed to exist together!There was always an unnecessary deadline,more often than not, for something terrifically ridiculous. I knew the right things to do in school.Ok, I dont mention anywhere that i aced in studies, but well, i didnt get bad either.I was known as someone's friend in college.Not for myself!
To think about all of it now.I suppose i just hated my college.I think i was way too scared to admit the fact!I thought i didnt want to be among those wannabee's who said it for the heck of it.I now think, they had a reason to dislike it.And if there is anything i want to cherish from my college life, its just the friends i made for life.It never had the crazy lunch breaks, where we stole and ate, its not the pranks we played, invariably every day, its not those decorations we messed up, i never had a day when i was caught bunking by my physics sir and led back to class,i never had prize winning environmental day,i never had one teacher who knew i had that inner fire in me to do something, no one thought i could do it!Be it anything.Even in shooting a ball right in the basket.So many people had that in school.I was so much more free. I had people who kept telling me, no ur not right.I kept having people who had it labeled in their heads that I was an air-head and i never did care about it.Why didnt i care about it??Why did it have to be a failure?
2 comments:
Hey!
Good post... I think there are many of us in the same boat... We shd be thankful that at least 'somewhere' we got noticed! :D
Life would have been one long inferiority complex if we had appeared non-existent right through school and college :)
Thanks for stoppin by :)
Oh my God! I just got to read this one!
Kavi, was it that bad??? Known as "someone's friend"... ahem.. am I guessing it right. ??
Now reality time!! Knock knock!
To all those people who did not matter to you or any of us for that matter, read as the weirdos who always wanted to be MLAs, you were someone's friend...
But to all the wonderful people who mattered to you.. and to all of us.. to our class.. to our friends in hostel.. You WERE and ALWAYS ARE a class apart. The very fact that, if any of us today think of the times they had with you... trust me.. all they would do is smile smile and smile until their cheeks ache! That much of an impact is what you have on others.Probably you don't know... The whole fact that you can make someone's day by making him/her smile is one helluva achievement... and I've always wished I could be like you in that regard :) .. Trust me girl, you were always the Ms.Popular in class unlike some other "speak-outs" (read as ME!).. Kavi... you of all the people :) You have been a darling to all .. all the way through!!!
Coming to the hypocrites, there is no dearth of them anywhere in the world.. so there's no point in complaining about those things we have no control over na :)
Cheer up hun!
You are the best and always have been! I know every person you've known closely in college would second me on this! :)
Muuuahh :)
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